I don’t know what to write these days, a signal not so much of a paralysis but a shifting of priorities and of images of the spiritual life that DF has been quite daring during these blogging years.
DesertFishing has been an exploratory act and movement around two major images: desert because of the seemingly endless, headed-for-nowhere wrestling with forces contrary to what i have been willing and praying to happen, and fishing because of the liminal depth of the lake of my childhood days. The hardest spiritual question, one fierce enough to test my fortitude has been: how do i go “fishing in a desert”? Will i even dare knowing that deserts are obviously arid places, hostile to creatures dependent on water? With the best that i can give – i did and left the place grateful even for the pain! I was brought into a desert because God saw in advance that i still have something to learn from being vulnerable, poor, isolated, seemingly lost, simple as biking to work. Again – it was a worthy spiritual stopover and i thank God for the “desert image.” The image has captured matters beyond my logical comprehension.
DesertFishing has been deeply connected to my inner angst and triumphs and despite its intensity, i feel it has to give way to a new “core image” because the spiritual life is always a movement, a series of stopovers, an opening up to new signs along the road. Core images can only be that sacramental, mere pointers to what ultimately is Beyond Images, the Unknown. But signs they are.
“Core images are the central symbols of our lives and of our personalities. We can probably never completely plumb their meaning for us, but we can learn to listen, especially to listen with “symbolic ears.” They are clues to understanding and connecting with the events of our past, with our present thoughts, emotions, and behavior patterns, and even with the direction of our future. They put us in touch with ourselves at the deepest levels of personality and with the meaning of our lives, including our personal images of God.”
Jean Dalby Clift
Core Images of the Self: A Symbolic Approach to Healing and Wholeness (p. 13)
It seems this is another time to listen to new signs, to image/s that will naturally present itself and point to something beyond itself. Unfold it will in due time.
A month ago, i felt DF was closing as i collapsed post after post into a book coherent i believe as a creative output. Yes, creatively, i have now a book i target for printing. I had no idea that the “book” would also help me moved into a new ministry: bigger, livelier and systems at their enthusiastic best! In any serious spiritual journey, one can never tell where one will land on.
I’ll wait and see how the deep will roar again like humpback whales singing as if moaning some goodbye. Because we are all humpback whales: huge and creatures of the deep.
Photo credit: Peat Bakke